slamat hari raya haji! (advance). oh yah.remembered.i realli wanna watch stuck on u.so0n.chao
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
broken by love 11:19 pm
its bean a few centuries since i bloged.im werking now at 41 jln pemimpin.its at bshan there.as if any1 will visit me there.anyway,my werk is basically to do pages of advertisements and stuffs for the bo0k.its called GREEN b0ok.the flight of stairs leading to the office is GREEN.ALOT of GREENERY!but kinda spoilt by the square patch of YELLOW on the steps.urgh!its like s0oo ugly..but im like..whAdEver!i can like, go on forever but im just gona stop. its ok ar.since theres this senior who also GREEN freak.but im like, the GREEN FREAK with the capitals.its like, way co0l. its like THE place for me to go to but.. nah.kinda racist i guess,the place.dont wanna talk about it.its up to the individual to view it.coz people will go, 'yeah..like whaDeVer' with the eyes rolled up and all.
im having my own time in my own ro0m now.im missing anak metro and ami.but i must have time for myself to0 ryte?later.awhile later i will go and watch tv.
i spent the eve chinese of new year with my daRlin at my place.no1 was home then.so we enjoy ar.it was also the eve of our anni.people,please pray that we will last.amin.insya allah ct.insya allah. went out on the 2nd day of chinese new year.cant remember.
weird.my mom especially.im not sure whether she knows.about me and hanis.she dont seems to ask or want to know either.its like she is giving the GREEN light.its like approving but also not.so im confused.and having a confused boyfren,well i guess it runs in the...the...relationship.gotta go now.theres more to type buthen..wanna watch tv.TaTa pEepz!
im back.all those sore singers dont want to admit that they are damn go0d,NOT!god!they sux.dah lar sumbang.ngaku jelar yg diri tu sumbang.mati-mati nak gi holiwud. im gona hog on the phone awhile later i guess.if not,tido teros.before that i shall melalak.teringin plak nak jadi mcm bebdk pat dlm tv tadi.la la la lar...blah la..reeelek sua kambeng.kucing insiden tadi.tekejot jap. forgotten whad else to type.buwaiz!
broken by love 10:01 pm
im suppose to hate goin in here again but someone asked me to blog in still. what happened was that day i had typed out so nicely and like this very long essay when i got disconnected and when i got connected back,my whole blog was gone!! DAMN SHIT! its like you write this very nice and long composition for the 0 levels and when the invigilator collects it,he just throw it away.or worst, tore it up in front of you.yeap.that kind of feeling.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
anyway,if you guys still havent realise,im no longer going to use all of the weird words that represents me.like,'me dada', 'me mama'.all those shit. i get tired of it now. so im going to be like any normal beings would type.like this.
todays drama was fun.as always.last part touching. they asked for 2 volunteers and i volunteered lar since no1 seems to want to.lo0ked at karmila and decided both of us lar,like usual.buthen,this mamat he came out faster than karmila.then,we got to know that we are characters of the story that each and everyone of those seated around us are going to tell by a few sentences per person.damn! i was like really acting lar,trying to keep focus and all while the rest were laughing their heads,butts and whatever off.it was fun!super fun. then before that did something super embarrasing and still cant shake it off me.arh!heck lar. and you guys gonna say,"kau malu?klakar per?" whatever..
anyway,i want to type out this poem that i made yesterday when i was super damn bored.it was done on my rocking chair.its not as go0d as hanis's buthen its quite ok for me lar.every word are in the original piece.here goes.
MY FIRST GO0D POEM (quite go0d lar)
i missed my hanis.wonder how he is.
he's in scho0l now.and im wondering how.
how he's going home?will he be alone?
did he injured himself?or is he...stoned?
but most important to me
is "does he miss his siti?"
im listening to the radio.calming my superego.
trying to pass the time.doing this rhyme.
i think im getting better.thanks to my 'bruder'.
thinking of what is happening.between him and me.
its so surreal.but hey,im happy and so is he.
will he call me tonight?or will he just sleep tight?
hoping its him.everytime the phone rings.
we love the song HAPPY TOGETHER
it just sond so....US!
before this we were just 'bruder' and 'sister'
well,we moved on quite fast!
i love him for who he is
the stone and difficult-to-get-angry,HANIS
he enjoys my company
and he cant beat other guys,even theres so many...
yeap.thats it.you guys may think,"it sucks man!" and "she calls that good? buat klakar per ni pompan..." \/\/hateVer.... and the '...beat other guys...' part - what i mena is that he's the best and no1 can replace him.not the hitting-kind of beat.that one hopeless.hahahah.jokin. love you people who care to read my blog.even though you guys may come in because this is like your last resort. \/\/hateVerr.. auw!stupid pimple!pop out in my ear... chao peEpz....
broken by love 11:51 pm
welL.hanis came over yesterday.taught i the lindi p0op dance.hahahah.mE mean the lindy hop dance.mE find that weird.the dance.or is it just hanis? kahkahakah. anydirection,mE had a great time yesterday. but TODAY,me had the MOST fun time ever with mE boy.
Saturday, January 10, 2004
welL.in the morning was the usual chores and all.then must send mE pet to madrasah.(kewl eh?) mE boy folLowed mE (membontot mE) to send mE pet to madrasah. from there, we went out lar.we to0k NEL to harbour front,walk-walk then to0k NEL again back to sengkang andthen...to0k 82 to pungGol end. there, mE had the MOST MOST MOST FUN ever!! it was like the longest time ever that mE had enjoy the beach so0 much! sigh. damn nice. so cute and all.we got damn wet or like mE said it,super drenched. to0k the bus home alL wet.hahahaha. should seE the l0ok on alL the pasSengers. klakar man.
ME LOVE TODAY!!!!! ME LOVE ME BOY!!! (the rest of the story betweEn the 2 of us only.)
broken by love 9:58 pm
mE body aching.must be tired. sleEping so0n.
Thursday, January 08, 2004
broken by love 12:48 am
mE went out today. mE fetched mE pet from scho0l then halfway 'it' went home on 'its' own (mE trained it welL huh?hahahah) then mE went to hougang central. went to POSB cause neEd to bank in mE cheque and update mE parents bo0k to0. GOD! the q was damn long! mE kept mEself there by listening to force vomit. and with the encouragement of the song 'siti',mE was able to tahan the long q. dont give up...oh siti dont give up! welL,then mE went to visit hanis who was sick.hE,as most of you people dont know, is acCident-prone. hEs shoulder came out yesterday and yes, adoi. but hE, step-teferefer only,hahahah. mE realLy proud of him cause hE damn strong even though mE kept saying weak ar lu. meEt the sister and the 'auntie'. thought her sister Malay,welL,helped her with her homework. MY GOD!!! mE damn ashame of mEself!! mE seEms to forget like,80% of what mE had ever learnt! got problem trying to translate to her. DAMN that was stupid. mE even made fun of hanis.more of mocking. mE SUPER sorRy hanis.didnt mean it. was quite tense lar.1st time meEt your sister.but mE had a great time. was realLy sorRy that mE had caused trouble in anyway. mE wanna apologise again if mE mention to much of you in mE blog. welL,mE have you and karmila only for these holidays. mE very soRry.
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
tuesday was fun-Ny! ok.this part wasnt funNy at alL. thing was, mE actualLy got lost in Singapore! YES! SINGAPORE! st0opid ryte?! mE pet gave mE wrong direction. mE had the fEeling that it was wrong but since it is usualLy right,mE just folLowed its instructions lar. wrong move! luckily mE know where the bus was going and managed to think and react very fast (must thank mE scho0l years of being taught welL,especialLy during the counciLlor years.misSed those times). anyWei, mE droPped at bradeLl westlake scho0l and walked til bradeLl mrt station where mE decided to take the bus, last resort. mE was actualLy trying to save the bus fare since it was left with like 55 cents for the trip home. welL, it was quite obvious that mE was late. mE was greEted with grins when mE entered the ro0m. mE was wondering why at first buthen mE realised why. mE was wearing the 'DANGER.CERTIFIED BITCH' teE. hahahah.maybe they were thinking,"...that explains why she was late.." hahahah. welL, Like WHATEVER! (that show is kewl!) anyWei, the acting lesSons realLy made mE feEl forget everything! it was when we were about to end the lesSon with al-fatihah did mE realised that mE had actuaLly forgotTen mE problems during the lesSon. that was when mE realised that it was true that by doing something, especialLy if you enjoy it, it realLy helps to ease the mind. that was double kewl! new discovery for i! and after lesSon, it was the normal My-Problems-With-Guys catching up with karmila. she ar..realLy man. damn slut. hahahah.(heard that word on radio.or was it something like that?) anyWei, mE jokin only. she knows shes a bitch. we even made fun of her and she even admit it. but please ar, dont you people dare say that to or in front of her. cause then,that would be the last time you wilL ever be her friend. mE damn close with her and moreover, shes mE sista. yeah,so it was about the guys she wants but also dont want cause the one she wants also wants but she also want another one and that other want also want her and inthe end she stil cho0se i.so no point.( she wants to marRy i.seE who make the 1st move lar. she or mE boy.hahahah ) yeah.that was how tuesday ended.some sort. cant remember after that. oh yah! it didnt ended that way. mE mesSaged natasha. we mesSaged each other awhile before she asked i to calL her up and we talked till 1 plus. catch up alot-alot. she working now.( welL that was part of the reason why mE mesSaged her in the 1st place ) talked and talked and laughed and laughed. after that, kena hang abit by mE mama when charging the phone but ended when mE closed her bedro0m do0r. then mE went to sleEp until this mornin. woke up and was told to vacuUm the house. did it and then had a bath before fetching the pet and did what mE did as typed out above. mE downloading songs now. tomorRow maybe going to meEt nat. and returned the overdued bo0ks. shit! betTer go compasS tomorRow. the bo0ks are not under mE name. its under mE pets name. gonNa slack. and yah,mE played this cute game at dresSup.com. I LIKE! chao! love you peEps especiaLly mE boy. muah....cheE.hahahah.hungry ar.even though ate nasi ready. tatatatatata.....
broken by love 11:51 pm
its n0on now.mE came back from scho0l around 11 plus.mE went to to scho0l to take mE edusave award and not to study! again mE shalL say,"WAD PA MAU SKO0L2 NIE SUMER?!" hahahahahak.evil i. anydirection,mE bored now. and this is what mE usualLy enter in mE blog. so if you guys wanna know like when mE enter mE blog,its during the BORED times. mE at home with mE dada and he kept telLing mE to eat since he already co0ked.mE ate this blueberRy bread just now while waiting for the bus to go home.mE wilL eat,but later. mE guesS he is lonely outside now buthen....mE go out later to acCompany him lar. god! he is watching lord of the rings.mE dont he watching which part because mE couldnt be bothered!never liked that movie.dont know why.anydirection, he woke mE up at 9 plus! urgh!! mE had racC0on eyes. and mE thought it was late,like 11 plus. sheEsh. sigh. mE damn bored. mE went to barbie.com this morning,playing the games there.very cute. but mE dont think that is what sadrina thinks. hahahaha. that girl very cute. ok,mE shalL not say that or she wilL shout in mE ear if she finds out. hanis, this is a warning for you. DO NOT,mE repeat,DO NOT TELL YOUR DARLING SISTER THAT ME SAID SHE IS CUTE. mE wilL sufFer deafnesS for a lifetime. that is why hanis usualLy says ah? and eh? (and mE thinks he is saying it now as hE reads this) that is what and how powerful her sisters voice is. hanis,no ofFence.she'll so0n be mE sister to0 (yeah ryte ct...)
Monday, January 05, 2004
damn mE bored.yeah man!!! mE listening to 'dangdut is the music of my country'. cute man this song. after this is hanis's go-to-sleEp song,'you werent there'. very sad yet it has this strong force betweEn two people who are distant.mE talking rubBish. mE feEling it now. so far (even though its stilL within singapore).....yet mE knows hE is thinking of mE. misSing i like mE misSing him now. sigh. love you LOTSA daRling.
broken by love 12:06 pm
weLl.had mE last kisS for this weEk, which will have to last tilL next sunday.mE guesS its monday now.hmm.bear with it lah.not that long ryte.mE smalLest pet was scared after watching 'the frighteners'.that story more of funNy than scary. weak lar 'he'.oh,mE mean 'it'.welL, last night ended with a scolding.quite normal lar.mE mama pisSed ofF with mE pet because 'he',mE mean 'it',didnt do 'its' homework.always like that.and 'it' is only in primary 2 now.what wilL hapPen to 'it' as 'it' grows?sigh.so end up everyone (almost) got blame for it. sheEsh.luckily,mE forgive easily so now mE dont feEl anything anymore of it.
mE misSing mE boy ( wanted to type 'boy-a',like 'sweet-a'......nevermind. personal joke ). mE tried on mE new teE.its so0 kewl!! mE thinking of buying the other one as welL. its dirty lar, but like what Mr.Kiasu would say, 'I LIKE'. its crude for some maybe.but not i! definitely not! mE lo0k quite go0d in black teE. its brings the youth in i.hahahaha.yer2 jer pompan nie.
mE boy got to meEt mE cousin.hE very cute lar hE. hE learnt new word today. belo.hahahah. for those who dont know what it meant, its alomost the same as slenger. anydirection, mE love him for it. mE going to scho0l later in the morning to take mE bursary award thingy. then thinking of going to PAP to ask for any vacancy.no,mE not going there to study,instead, mE thinking of teaching. weird ryte? mE imagine alL the kids runNing homE as so0n as mE say go0dbye.tragic man. welL,mE dont have the power to make litTle kids like mE like hanis does.and alL hE has to do is just SMILE! weird ryte? by just flexing 17 muscles,hE can melt litTle kids hearts.eEw! well,if that doesnt work, alL the kid has to do is simply touch his stomachand they can feEl the warmth and get melted there and then. eEw eEw! LIKE WHATEVER..
mE feEl dumb. mE stupid man. everyone (mostly) got to go back scho0l while mE is stuck at home.welL, not realLy lar buthen,mE cant go out that much either.weLl at least mE had plans for next weEk,mE mean this weEk. mE told mE mama already. it sounded like apProval though she kinda nag just now but was interupted by this cute black dog (without the bone,if you get the joke, which mE dont think so ) which was trying to come towards mE but was hold tightly on the leash by its owner,a kid, who lo0ks like i when mE was in primary 4 or 5. either or,she l0ok like bini popeye, olive. but thinking back and recalLing what hapPen just now,mE think there was this kind of sadnesS in the dogs eyes.like it was begGing i to freE him.some sort. weird. am mE comMunicating with the animals now? welL,actualLy mE am.at home only that is. hahahahahak.evil sak ct...eh,biasa lar
mE love you, BOY-A. LOTSA. because you (or should mE say i) is SWEETA.
broken by love 12:40 am
mE entering now.damn bored at home.well,mE went to compasS point in the morning until 2 plus.mE fathers birthday today but celebrating tomorrow since he's werking later.neEd his rest.so celebration postponed to tomorrow.well,not exactly celebrating.not the party-party type.we usually buy a cake,sing birthday song and all is done at home or go makan outside and do abit of jalan-jalan.so, for tomorrow, it wil be the second choice - makan out.and mE already asked hanis to come along tomorrow but.......well,hE cant la.obviously.if not mE wouldnt type the word 'but',ryte?any direction,mE understand although sad.hE has his game tomorrow.hE's up for it!yeah man!you go boy!mE thinks his playing against Police.well,all the best!yak..?
Saturday, January 03, 2004
mE have yet to bake a cake for mE father.('father' doesnt sound nice.was thinking of 'dada'.sounds cute.well,it suits a cute person like me ryte?yeah ryte.....see?told u peEpz) mE was thinking of baking a cake but mE mother (again 'mother' doesnt sound nice.mE thinking of either 'mama' or....hmmm.. 'mama' sounds close to 'dada'.but the spelling tak hensem. wad about 'momma'.buthen, its not the same.'father' - 'mother'....'dada' - 'mama'.better ryte?hmm...farts also kewl. hers is fader - mader,malay style. ..................mE have decided on 'dada' - 'mama')...so,mE mama wants a brownie instead of a cake.mE LOVE BROWNIES (yes!must adD to WAD ME LOVE.forgotten to do so 2 days ago) mE obviously dont mind but mE dada (wah....weird seh) wont be able to eat that much.thats what mE thinks because it could be to0 sweEt for him.wont be nice ryte?its his birthday anydirection. but mE shalL seE later.maybe have last minute plans or whatever.
well,mE boy went out today and mE heard his sisters voice when mE calLed just now.she was guesSin that it was i on the phone with her brother.well,maybe its obvious when her brother talks to i on the phone.my boy can be quite mushy at times.hahahah.( whao!this is mE 1st laughter on the blog.wahahahahahak.this is the 2nd one.whao!hahahahaahahahahk.the 3rd.and......coming..........mE shall stop it ) sigh.mE bored.(obviously) mE quite hungry.but mE shalL eat later.mE miss mE boy so0o0 much. ( eEw..now its mE whos mushy ) but its true so mE shalL not be bothered by that so much. mE should not eat. mE putTing lot of weight now. mE 43 and a half now!! mE increased by 500g! ARGH!!! mE hungry now.mE going to wish mE dada now.hes going to werk. ahahahahaha...mE asked mE dada for duit raye! hahahaha....mE said selamat hari raya instead of selamat hari jadi. hahahhaak...mE evil. mE even said hes old because hes 4o. wahahahahak. GOD IM EVIL!
sigh.again.mE bored.ok. whoa. we going to eat at tekka tomorrow.hahahaha. after zohor. thats the plan. mE dont think mE boy can come. so sad.
its sad. so sad. its a sad,sad situation.
sighing again. mE starting each paragraph with a sigh.kewl! mE dont know whether mE should telL mE mama bout mE boy. scary man. hmm..... mE bored. mE stilL without a job. mE want to go back to scho0l!!!! mE miss wearing a scho0l uniform.damn! mE should have studied welL for mE prelims buthen..no point talking now. mE want to meEt mE boy! mE misSed him ALOTSA! SWEETA of i ey? hahahak. mE saw mE friends pic in msn just now. it was at the esplanade. mE realLi wish that mE could go there with mE boy at night. well,theres a problem though. not the night part. instead its the boy part (that sounds dirty ryte?). mE dont think mE can go out with him that much now because hE wilL definitely be damn tired on weEkends and mE wants him to rest. mE shalL just wait and dream of it 1st. for the time being. mE can wait. well,if hE can wait for mE for 4 years, why cant mE wait for 3 months? ryte? we must give and take in a relationship. alL this while hE is very patient with i. if ever one day,mE were to slap him in the face, mE realLy wish hE woould forgive i. that wilL be the day mE go against him because hE wants i to do something go0d instead of the bad and mE,being the hot head, temperamental and stubBorn one, wilL slap him because that wilL be the last thing that mE wilL want to do.mE mean doing the go0d stufF instead of the bad one. ( you people understo0ded? mE thinks hot head and temperamental means the same,ryte?) mE very the scared if that ever hapPens because for i, anything can hapPen. like what hanis always says,"...because you can." but mE love mE boy and mE wilL try mE very the best not to do anything stupid in front or to him, and that includes crying. hE wilL kept thinking forever that it was partly his fault that cause mE to cry. and that hurts him alot. and mE dont want to hurt him at alL. mE want to say sorRy if mE ever hurt him in anyway. mE love you.
broken by love 5:42 pm
mE bored now.so mE entering it again.its only......9.06am.(mE ro)m clock not workingso neEd to check outside.as if u guys care.sheEsh) mE leaking badly now n losing damn a lot of blo0d.plus painful cramps now and then.and hanis says it hard being a girl. (hard?girl? mE thought thats guys.hahahah.all smalL kids wont understand.ryte hanis?hahahahak) thats why mE dont intend to have mE own children.(hahaha.sick ryte?well,mE am.) mE fear labour pain lar. (ok. must update WAD ME HATE with this new fear.and something else for WAD ME LOVE..but mE dont remember what.sheEsh)
Friday, January 02, 2004
mE bored now.very bored now.la la la la la la la........ mE hungry.mE in pain (not now maybe later................nows later.no no.later. .. .. ... .. ..... ....now?? argh!it wont end so mE beta stop)
hmM...when mE meEting THE parents(more like THE family) scary man.thought of it just turns my stomach more.(is it like that? turns the stomach?so weird.well,nothing new.mE talk rubBish anyway) plus the pain of leaking.shit man! haiya. ok.mE feEling the pain abit mE guess. mE bored!!! mE miss mE boy!!!and this stupid song is about not leaving someone,mE think.its the sclub7 junior r.mE thinks so.mE feEling THE pain now.hmM......................................................................mE BORED!BORED!BORED! MISSED ME BOY! ok! goin to download missy elliots pass the dutch. wait hah......la la la ......yeah man! its downloading. mE have lotsa house chores to settle later.mE still not in terms with mother.sheEsh.(bleh blah) mE rude.mE sorry.mE bored.mE miss mE boy. oh yah. mE downloaded happy together by simple plan.say....mE shall watch freaky friday later.maybe mE shall try stoning.hmmm.mE had weird dream yesterday.nothing new.
imagine me and you, i do
i think about you day and night, its only right
to think about the girl you love and hold her tight
so happy together
if i should call you up, invest a dime
and you say you belong to me and ease my mind
imagine how the world could be, so very fine
so happy together
i cant see me loving nobody but you
for all my life
when youre with me, baby the skies'll be blue
for all my life
me and you and you and me
no matter how they toss the dice, it had to be
the only one for me is you, and you for me
so happy together
i cant see me loving nobody but you
for all my life
when youre with me, baby the skies'll be blue
oh yah..mE wanted to go jogGing today butthen...leaking.very uncomfortable and pain in the...stomach area.( what were u thinking?pain in the ass? for that kind of pain,it is explained in hanis's blog.read it to find out more about pain in the ass.visit www.madnis.blogspot.com.thank you for visiting www.greenct.blogspot.com.mE, ct , signing off) hahahah...yer2 je pompan nie. mE dancing to simple plans happy together.hanis was right.mE high when mE leaking.kahkahkah..im listening to pass the dutch. intro takder tapi ok la. bleh download lain nyer lain kali.mE like milkshake too. finding lyrics now. wahlau.how come tis song keEps repeating at the 5 seconds to catch the breath and lost of voice part je.weak sak. hanis,mE thinks its time for i to stop downloading and help the music industry. yeah man!! (FART! KO NAK AKO UPDATE SANGAT KAN. NAH AMEK KO)
broken by love 9:04 am
mE had de best end of the year in 20o3.mE spent alot wif karmila and hanis.mE watched sch0ol of rocks on new years eve and scary movie 3 two days before mE watch scho0l of rocks.mE watched both with hanis.the movies were damn funny.mE was awed by the way those kids play the instruments. damn kewl man! the drumMer lo0ks like that guy in harRy poTter who is in slitherins (alah..that guy..something malfoy eh?the one with a combed-back hair d0.nevermind) any direction,he played the drums damn well!full of hatred.hahaha.very the semangat.and scary movie 3 was funny,unlike its name. they made fun of movies such as the ring,the matrix,the sign,th others,8 mile and a guy who slept with boys,(ex)king of pop,mikail jakson (malay style). its was fun goin out with hanis and watching movies and all.he met my nenek.and going to meet the uncle and closer sessions with auntie. kahkahkahkah....lurve u hanis.so fun to disturb u and u never seEms to get angry.
got to go and find work.job.whatever.oh yah! fathers birthday on saturday. have to buy something.or make.fast.like now...now..wad bout now..later......now...fyne!NOW!
broken by love 8:43 am
its been a few lightyears ever since mE haf updated mE blog.mE wana wish those who care to come into my blog which haf not been updated for the longest time ever, A HAPPY NEW YEAR! May this new year are blessed with joy,happiness,luck and love for u guys. mE love and missed u guys alot. do remember that mE will always be here for u people..yak??
mE guess most of mE friends are in SCHOOL now.WAHAHAHAHAHAK.WAD PA MAU SKUL2 NIE SUMER?!! (god! im evil! karang kene pat diri sendiri baru tau) sorie r people.mE jokin.KAHAKAHKAH. (i can still laugh ryte?!) wishing them all the best and hope they are enjoying what they do. (yah ryte.kahkahkah) k.k. mE stil hope that they do cherished the days we spent and want to do it again sometime. (eeW!sounds so.....eh!kotor sak u people)
broken by love 8:20 am