hey.i get this saf forms.lo0ks kewl.buden i tink xpired ready.dunnoe lar.later can read.gonna cho0se a mo0d and then go down.cha cha chao~~(so many tymes buden stil come in.hahaha.whad shit only ct.)
Saturday, March 20, 2004
broken by love 2:28 pm
granmom very kecoh.umm..noisy.she cute sia.hahaha.im confusin ryte?anyway,taught her how to use de washin machine.she not use with our house one.hahahha.she ran a little just now coz i askd her to hurry up coz she walkd so slow.hahahah.very duck lyke.hhahaha.butt sho0k al0t.kahakaha..ok.ok.evil sak me.
she made me laff now.told her that im typin bout her running lyke a duck.but she said i said she ran lyke breasts.hahahahain malay then can understand.ahahahah.shit only.anyway,ive got lots to do.wanna buy lotsa stufs.wo0ho0!!!!retro mania!!!
broken by love 2:21 pm
ok.im openin de letter now........
wo0 ho0!!!!!confirmd!!im in!!!! Milennia Institute (Bartley) Arts!!kewl!
ok.gtg now.granmom(nenek) needs muh help!!!and then help grandad(tok)wash car n pyck up mom from werk.cha cha chao!!!!
god!damn alot of mails man!how may years nvr open?!!
broken by love 2:17 pm
ok.i just reachd home.bout umm....5mins ago.(buden now dah almost 20 mins.)gonna check my postin now.even though i already know where im goin.hanis checkd for me.told him dun tell me buden he evil.so,yea.whadever.im goin to mi arts stream.but gonna check.just to make sure.
hmm..........
damn...damm it.ish.cant go in.blardie shit.
anw,i have a makan-makan tomorrow for my teater thingy.before that though,most probably im goin to wannabes house.my cousins house in oder werds.whad shit.anyway,...oh yah.i pushd my nenek al de wae up de stairs.ahhahaha.pushd her on her butt.usin my hand.hahahaha.that tyme im better.i used my head.hahahaha.if she blast her gas out,phew!im gonna lose my head!kahakahahkahha.for those curious peeps whu wanna noe why on earth i used my head instead of my hands,its becoz i was carryin grocery bags!thats why!and i had to push her becoz she is not that strong lar!tires easily that kynd...understo0ded peeps?! very go0d children.hahahhahaha.whad shit only.
ok.im feelin headachy.weather very hot.fuh...its hot!im hot!i am??wo0 ho0!!hahahha.syck.
hiay...alhamdulillah.god bless me.thank god.im so0 happy i got in.but wait...not confirm.ok peeps.im gonna check my mail now.khairuz says they send me de confirmation letter.some sort.go get it now.cha cha chao~
broken by love 2:16 pm
yes.im in.ok.im at my werk place now.just finishd eatin and stil haf some time til 12.45.im usin one of de comps for free use of internet here.hahahah.im damn full.no no..im daMm full.hahahaha.sto0pid joke.anyway,you wont believe(again)whad i did just now.
Friday, March 19, 2004
we had to check tonnes and tonnes and tonnes of books!!!oklar.just now not that many many lar.but we had to do it al by next week!and our manpower are lyke so00o0 much!!!hahah.pitiful sia we.sigh.im now hanging out with liza,shes malay,and ee ling,well,shes chinese lar!sheesh.anyway,theres another gerl that was calld back lyked us.shes mimi.i think thats how its spelt.she damn chio man!wo0ho0!but now,hmm...ee ling and me are usin de comp.liza to0 but somehow shes now nowhere insight.hahaha.she photocopyin some stufs of hers.hahahaha.busybody sia ct.well,she told me herself.hahahaha.whadever.
and this seng leong,a guy,is tryin to check out de postin results.sheesh.its tomorrow!stubborn sia.anyway,hes de boss nephew.along with another cousin of his,nelson.and nelsons fren,i supose,bryce.damn noisy sia.but fun lar.at least not dead since theres also de veterans duin de checkin with us.
see!!cannot access thru!stuborn peeps.when de ministry says tomorrow,it means tomorrow lar!haiya...sheesh.
atdoi.later must continue with de checkins!!!oh god...theres so0o0 much!!and th bo0ks are like so0 damn thick lor..(now i sound lyke manda again.which maks me recal of de incident here,at Green Bo0k)hai........oh yah.anyway,for you peeps info,de bo0ks are damn thick noe.its lyke those yellow pages kynd lar.only difference is that here,de bo0ks are GREEN!!hahahahah.to0pid sia.its lyke de directory bo0ks found at de airport.you noe that kynd??yeah!thats for commercial.industrial damn 'pek chek'.i think its not ryte.anyway,yah, de industrial bo0ks are twice as heavy and as thick (obviously) to de commercial ones.haiy...im bein crabby huh?anyway,lizas bside me now......ok.now she went bside ee ling whos bside me.to my left now peeps!!ahahahah.whad shit only ct.yah yah..and that 'cien cien' aka seng leong,is bhind me.not directly though.and bside him is alan.one of de design crew.whad shit ct!!!they dont even care bout it!heck lar!!!blardie shit.kahakahkahkah.so vulgar.haiy...so fun.
oh yah.my granses tis mornin told me not to go to werk.how kewl is that??hmmm...dunnoe.i xpect 'em to support nd encourage me i gues.whad shit.
my oder half dint msg me todae.so far,not yet though.im havin trouble tryin to control whad i wanna sae.its lyke it can hurt oders.definitely.and im not lyke that.mostly whad i wanna sae now are very direct,and they may not think very well of me.i dont wanna bad reputation.instead i wanna make more frens!haiy..so touchy.touchin.whadeverlar.shit.oh yah.de chio gerl sittin bhind me,(turnin my head to lo0k bhind) and bside 'cien cien'.i wanna go buy tidbits with her.so i better go now.cha cha chao~
broken by love 12:16 pm
ok.ive practically plannd of whad to type.hahahah.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
ok.i was duin some readin and checkin out new werds meanins from de dictionary.then i just had my supper with my grandad which was rice with sambal goreng.had that with curry earlier on for dinner which was bout....whad,5??sheesh.anywae,you people wont believe whad i did todae.
ok.when my dad went to fetch my mom back from werk,taggin with him my bros,im left at home ith my granmom.i told her earlier on ard 3plus that im gonna doll her up.she said yeah in a you-are-ridiculous way which is a kinda 'No'.but anyway,i was lyke serious?and al of that and she was on de agreeable sort!go0dy!hahahaha.
it was so0 damn funny noe.she was lo0kin so0 hippie kynd.hahahahah.i even to0k pics of her.she had eyeshadows and kohl eyeliner on her eyes,blushers and pressd powder on de face and cheeks,lip balm and lip gloss on her lips,an engineer hat,hair let down and a Peicai windbreaker on!!hahhahahahahahaha.damn cute seh.before dollin her up and al,i was lyke shes mad!hahahah.syck!to actually let me du sto0pid stufs on her!!ahhaahhaha.then i told her to hold on to a glass bottle which lo0ks lyke vodka bottle and told her to pose in a drunk way.hahahaha!!!!!funny man!!!damn hilarious.sigh.so fun.
oh yah.before her though,it was my youngest bros turn.hahahah.he lo0kd girlie.well,thats not new coz he alwaes has been lyke one!hahaahahaha.he lo0kd damn sweet.sheesh.to0k pics of him to0.he got damn nice lips man.esp since i put de combination of lip balm and lip gloss on.damn smooth and nyce!wo0 ho0!he had de same stufs on his face xcept for de cap.he,had a stripy head band on.hahhahahaha.cute sia.tis is very rare of me to sae that.but he was.and he went to fetch my mom with make up on.hahahahah.he cant wash em off properly.i think he stil has it til now.hahahahaha.sto0pid sak.told him to wash again dont want to listen.later when he gets older and has pimples,then he noe.then i will laff at him til my butt cums off.kahakhakakahka.
sigh.damn kewl man todae.especially de granmom part.hahahaha.so0 kewl.she was damn spontaneous and kewl bout it.she even askd me to doll her up if she goes out sometime!!hahahaha.how kewl is that?!VERY,i tell you.and she even told me to show it to my grandad.hahahahaha.syck sia.but damn fun.sigh.
tomorrow im gonna start werkin again.suposd to be sucky buden i want money!!!to replace the $45o i used.sheesh.im so0 darn tired of lyin...but if i dont,my life is suckier!sheesh.to0pid!!!sigh.whadeverlar.
ok then.im gonna continue readin and al de stufs a bit more before doze off.my oder half has alreadi fell asleep.i dont know whad he did todae.hope he updatd his blog.sheesh.pemalas punyer mamat.for those who dont understand,it means whad a lazy guy.yeah?go0dy.better go now.so draind.kinda.of laffter.hahahahaha.sigh.cha cha chao~
oh yah.i guess ill be goin to werk alone.i mean without anyone else close to werk with me.coz karmila dint reply my msg and al.atdoi.sucky man!whad shit.
whad song was that?got freak and al.sheesh.whad shit only man.
broken by love 11:50 pm
call me bored or whadever.i dun care.i m bored though.sheesh.oklar.i shall stop this junkies.love u people.
nah...im vulgar now.hahahaha...
shit you people.lots!!!tonnes!!!well,theres more in the sewers.kahakhakah....
broken by love 3:41 pm
from my heart...from the soul...so slow.and sycky.my god!!!i beta stop this listenin and commentin stufs.........btw,this song sux.very touchy touchy.
broken by love 3:40 pm
hmmm...im listenin to stacys mom song.hmm....whad if hanis wants my mom??instead of me???that can be true you know.he fynds me attractive.but my mom....better then me perhaps??wow.that can happen.thats why hes quiet around my mom.hmm....but i think hanis gonna say all these are wrong and that im crazee but hey!it can happen!
hmm.... stacy can you see,ure just not the gerl for mehmm...
well,i can change that.......
Siti can you see,you're just not the girl for me
hmm....can happen.maybe its true fountain of wayne.is that how its spelt?anywae,thanx for makin me think and openin my eye.
hmmmm.....tata young...
sexy naughty bitchy me.
theres lots of mo0ds foe this.hahahaha.maybe thast why im thinkin al these rubbish.no no.not rubbish.shit.yes shit.ahem ahem...maybe thats why im thinkin al these shit.hahahah.shits.hahahaha.
like totally...hahahahaha...heard al these stufs on radio.tsk tsk tsk...bad influence for me.shit.
da da da...da da da...i was a .... then got somethin set you free.whadeverlar.got amazin.got celebrate.hahahah.whad shit man.
nvm.lets wait til de song ends.hope its not continued by anoder song.sheesh.slow man.wah!!!!got trailers.and anoder song!!! nvm lar.forget it! i dunoe whu sang this song.whadever shitlar.go now.~cha cha chao~
broken by love 3:37 pm
ok.im starting werk tomorrow.how kewl is that?!very.de ladie,eve,calld me just now.but they need me only for a week.well,thats fine with me!maybe til next fridae.kewl huh?!i need de money!!i askd her(eve)whether karmilas gona be there to0.she not sure.butden...karmila calld me!she to0 was calld back!and that eve even mentiond my name!that ill be cumin.just to bait her to0.hahahah.well,she however have doubts bout goin back there again.she,unlyke me,have actually fought with some staffs there.oklar.argued.shit ryte her.hahahaha.syck gerl.darin man.unlyke me.so0 unlyke of me.i,on de oder hand,just keep evrythin insyde.well,i told karmila and those close to me though.hahahah.whad only ct.ya ya...ct talkin shit again.well,isnt that go0d??im no longer vulgar.hmm....just whad am i now???im a gerl u dumbarses...hahahahah.
i wanna go for teater practice todae!!but i highly doubt that i can.seein now my mother is so0 not on my syde.sheesh!sucky.hmm...i need to fynd that warranty.my bro spoilt my watch.told you guys ryte?sigh.sto0pid fo0l.im longin to wear it again!!blardie shit.sigh.shit man.
i dun feel lyke fuckin anyone yet though.just some shitty werds are enuff for now.hahahahah.blardie shit.
hmm....i ate quite alot todae.hehehek.lotsa more to fill in!!hahahahah...
oh yah.i think im very unhealthy now.i keep havin pains in my abdomen area and near my heart.creepy huh??sigh.well,these are de nature of livin.hahahahah.thats whad i think so.nolar.i obviously just made that up lyke 2 min ago.hahahah.
bless me.thats becoz i just sneezed.sigh.
whad to wear tomorrow??shud i lo0k vogue lyke yesterdae??hahhahah.yesterdae wasnt vogue.just plain ugly.with face full of make up.al de cosmetics.atdoi.very oily and sticky feelin man.thats is de only thing that i usually regret when i put on make up.hahahahah.whad shit.yeah man.whad shit.
oh yah.i met hanis yesterdae.we watchd cat in a hat.damn funny lar that movie.but i just dint noe why no one seems to one to laugh.sheesh.i,on de oder hand,crackd up alot.i hope hanis wasnt ashamed by whad i did.i was just tryin to have fun.which i happily was.even though the same thingy occurd,that saved me from duin sto0pid and unthinkable stufs.sorry hanis if i mbarassd you.but you cant b botherd ryte??well,nothing new.thats why im happy!i think.im tryin to smile now. ....come one ct...smile...for hanis...??...for the werld?? .....yeay!!!! i smild!!!!! i shall put cat in a hat for movie of the month of march-end.dirty dancing is movie of the month of march-beginnin.kahkahakahkah.whad shit only ct.well,nuthing new ryte..
~chachachao~
broken by love 3:24 pm
ok.this is so0 nothing new.especially to me.sigh.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
my mom spoilt my mo0d for the whole dae.blardie shit.oklar.i was quite pisd this afterno0n also coz de 2 gerls i went out wif didn noe where else to go and al but was stil ok and al.ok ok.the point.im DAMN iritated.this scoldin,lecturin and al that blardie blardie shit is makin me feel DAMN FUCKD UP!whad shit man.ok.i seriously have no nothing whadsoever against her.xcept for al de previous SAME blardie thingies.oh god....this is freakinly iritatin.and shitty.and fuckinly sucky.why me?!!!damn man.im realli damn envious of oders.i know im not suposed to compare bcoz oder people and their families function differently.but my mother is DAMN SUCKY!god!!!!! im bein rude arent i?but you cant blame me!thing is,i just went out todae and .......ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this topic is really puttin me off. ................................DAMN!!
and de song before this kelis-milkshake is some gerl with lyrics bout whad.tryin to make me cry?whad shit.
oh yah.shahera,be thankful that you have a very kewl and understandin and nice parents.
oh god.im evil huh? but i seriouly wishd that im an orphan.with only a father. god!! im rude.shit.
i feel lyke cryin but at de same tyme pisd.and i just have no mo0d to cry.this thingy is really makin me feel so0 darn helpless and tired.just thinkin of it al.luckily,(thank god!),my granses are here.amen.
i was thinkin of goin for counsels with my parents.when i was bathin.(i shall save de further details of me bathin, to myself) im...........sigh.havin a block nose.sheesh.im so darn pissy.oklar.not to that xtand for now.since im in my ro0m and she in hers.argh!!!!
seriously ryte people...i feel like.... jumpin.from my flat.(my house to low) jumpin was de 1st think that comes to my mynd when i think bout this thingy.argh! i seriously want evrythin to be go0d and lyke any normal family wil xperience.but this is damn tuff.my mom damn iritatin and stubborn an al.argh!!!!!
i feel lyke askin for my teachers help.im so helpless now.she keep blamin me!!! its lyke im her anger reliever.whad shit man.no one else to sho0t whad.just becoz i didn want to go to kampong.whad shit man!!!!! let me tell you whad shit it is.its BLARDIE shit!!(or shitty.whadeverla.) thats whad it is.
ok.im off now.wanna relax abit.try to.seein her face just brings back al de pissy feelin.at tymes.thats bcoz im to0 forgivin.but hey! dont ever take this for granted man.you wil regret it.cha cha chao man.
oh yah.i lost my green specs.for you peoples info.and my blardie iritatin last bro stuo0pidly anounce to i think practically evryone bout my new phone.but de only two oder souls who din know b4 are my parents ONLY.(apparently,almost evryone on my dads side knew bout i.sort of lar.not imp....argh!!)but now,after that xtra large mouth of his has release al de stufs that my parents have to know,i had to lied to 'em.infront of my granses.hahahah.im guilty.sigh.anw,blardie blardie shit.
i feel lyke typin this........
fuck.
broken by love 9:54 pm
im still up.even tho its 1 plus in de morn.and i have to wake up early.well,thats whad my gran says.anyway,i was readin oders blogs.wow...aLOT to read sia.im havin a leakin nose now and thank go0dness that i have stop de fartin act.it was very disturbin.myself and oders.
Monday, March 15, 2004
hanis,im so0 sorry to cause your mom to kynda lecture you.but you noe im evil ryte??and u cant be like me coz you are stil half as evil as Iam.but you love me for it ryte??oders love me for it to0.and oder to0pid stufs.like that hung thingy.as long as i don get teasd at when i visit peicai,that will be welcomin enuff.
hmm....i still think you dserve that lecture.kahkahkah.....
and,i wont be in your shoes.im not gonna xperience whad you had hanis.to0 bad. ;P
i may meet him todae.he has til 2pm to meet me.sigh.am i duin de ryte think?(now i sound lyke hanis) but seriously....am i THAT evil and rude and bad??plz gimme your comments people.i feel bad that im bein so0 different now.have i changed?and is it THAT obvious?and for whad?de better?or de opposite??i want to know.so,plz comment on this topic.
i to0k some pics wif my granses.so funny.anyway,i tynk i better log out now.but before that,i shall put that question and comment thingy up first.cha cha cha chao!
broken by love 1:19 am
ok.ive been fartin non-stop since just now.oklar..not non-stoplar but damn frequent man!plus,its freakin stinko noe..sheEsh.i pity al those who walkd bhind me or de path i went.kahkahkah.....pity sia.hmm..but i tynk i noe whads de cause of it al.i told gen just now.it must be de egg we ate at camp for todaes breakfast.
Saturday, March 13, 2004
for you peoples info,i had a 3 dae 2 nyte camp at st.johns island.kewl ar..im not one of de campers though (that was al s0oo long ago..*wink wink*..as if). im as de facilitator.(cheh...terror sia). im in charge of group 7,inspirators.and we emerge as champion!! yeay! and i was forced to do an impersonation of william hung! g0d.....so0 pathetic.and im known for that.shEesh.a few other facilitators also have their own best-known-for thingy.marcus for his 'hokey pokey',zaki for his 'o0m...ah ah ah' cheer and 'wheres de love' response and weili for his 'mMmm (jane)' demo.....and also for his girlie attitude.kahkahkah.. whad shit sia.and i managed to re-create another 'mambo no.5' routine.well,actually,al de steps are stil de same.xcept de song itself.i tried to dance to de 'hey momma' song and it turns out just fyne!! wheE...im go0d! and we al (campers...o0ps..i mean leaders,and facilitators) did a pretty go0d job! im lovin it! but this batch quite disappointin.not up to standard.and i mean THEIR standard.well,they cant even SET their own one! sheEsh..
well,for me ryte,i can get influence by oders easily.so,when most of de facilitators fynd 'em that wae...well,whad can i sae?! but seriously ryte,they are not as go0d as US.and i mean my batch then.de batch before this was also quite go0d.but my batch is stil de bestlar.(kahkahkah...) but seriously ar,we are lor.(wah..now i sound so amanda.kahkahkah...) this batch very playful (like whad kar liang said...kahakahkah) i mean he said they were playful and not kahkahkah.get it?? shEesh.slenger sak..kahkahkah..but theres kynda have a reason bhind de MAJOR difference lar.
ok.enuff said bout camp.anywae,we-me,nat,marc and zaki-went to catch a movie.i plannd to watch 'honey' buden....dun have.we were so0 lo0kin forward to watch it (kynda).then,we watchd haunted mansion instead.it was funny at tymes.(dumbarse) i got shockd a few tymes becoz that freak-ramzies (thats how its sounds like)-appeard unxpectdly,mostly bhind de eddie murphy and his wife,sara.freaker.sheEsh.de movie was oklar.wasnt very funny,lyke whad i tot it wud be.damn it duh.but oklar.kynda lyke fairy tale-ish.go0d!
im itchin now.must be de weather.well,when it rains,de mozzies will be here as well! blargh!daMm iritatin..
i misd my daRlin lyke crazy!!!! (kahkahkah...not that serious lar) i do misd him though.but not to that xtendlar.(im stil fartin..fuhwhee!) i wanna meet him! ................. buden,his dad arrivd in s'pore todae! yeay! at long last,tlc for him.kahkahkah...i let him do whadever he wants to lar.no forcin. and when i calld him after i was on de bus to go back to skewl,he told me that his dad was lyin on him.kahkahkah...so0 sweeta!
i wana out now.tired man.had block nose after i bathe.sheEsh.legs tired n achin when i walk.sigh... i have ulcer!!!! painly iritatin.not that very pain lar.
Arh...whadeverlar.cha cha chao!
broken by love 9:39 pm
ok.im chattin wif shahera now.she changin her template.read her blog and she said she dont lyke yelo now.sheEsh.i hope she lykes GREEN now.hahahah.
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
this actin thingy-the new phone thingy-is damn difficult.i keep havin this feelin of guilt every tyme de phone is in my hand.mebe coz (1) no permission from parents, (2) to0k out money from own savin acCount, (3) well,it just doesnt feel right.i noe that i have to reveal the truth,somehow.but not now.its to0 scary and pressurin.keEp it low.
at least my blur bro noes bout it.and now he is tynkin of gettin one.whad de..
oh yah.i went to turf city.for the national xcountry.god..it was super packd. and victorians just cant stop cheErin.sheEsh.so enthu.but its damn go0d and... i dont know.very...loyal?yeah... they were so0 full of spirit.i realli lyke that.and to see all de guys joinin in together....wow...it was so0 wonderful to see.sigh.so nyce.anw,whad i want to sae is the a gerls division. in case that you guys dint noe,the runners have to run on de horse track..somewhad. so,i and hanis was lo0kin out for de runners,comMentin and all.then we saw de 1st a div gerl.it was from MI! god..at 1st we cudnt belive and thought we were wrong.but bcoz i recalld seein de MI team wearin de blue jers so we were lyke.. Wow!! that gerl was super go0d.she leave de victorian gerl,if im not wrong, behind her for about 50m away.she was super go0d!! to be able to beat de top jcs...well,thats impressive for me.underdog man.kewl......SUPER kewl.
i have tuition lesson wif nisa later on.i just heard this nadira gerl gave her dedication on air.from MI 1st 3 months.po0lin now..wah man.goin sp that gerl.
oh yah.that MI gerl whu got 1st for de xcountry realli makes me more enthu to join MI AND their track team.buthen,when i think of it again,de trainin will definitely be damn tough.unlyke de trainin i went thru in peicai.that was super slack.but we stil manage to get to semis.that realli shows that our batch of runners were fabbity fab fab!! we're damn go0d! wo0ho0..
so,im realli worrid bout this.de idea of goin to MI and all.its gonna be damn stressful.and difficult.definitely.and de pressure is killin me!!! im breakin out alot now.either with depression or my period is just round the corner.still....! this is super sycky...
atdoi.de gerl whu made de dedication is from MI toh tuck.sheEsh.this 2- campuses-under-one-name thingy is confusin me alot.sigh..
hmm..ok.i went to watch Dirty Dancin 2 Havana Nights ryte.so,that shall be movie of the month of March.for those dance lovers or romantic or xotic kind of people,this movie you shud watch.it can arrouse the atmosphere for romance.hahaha.whad shit.anw,this is go0d shit.hahahaha.(sorrie,thats a personal joke) yeah.its a go0d movie.shud watch!
go now.cha cha chao!! (it rhymes! ...again... )
broken by love 1:25 pm
ok.i did sumtynk damn unhealthy todae.
Monday, March 08, 2004
i to0k out $45o from my acCount and bought a nokia 320o.syck ryte?! il be deadmeat.no no...il be minced meat..if my parents got to know bout this.
then i went to teach nisa physics.it was damn tough.as in tough to teach.tough to recall whad ive learnt.phew! luckily,i managd to do so. very go0d siti!
i went out wif hanis on saturday.after my camp in scho0l.class leader camp. we watchd Dirty Dancin 2 Havana Nights.it was damn nice man.well,maybe not for hanis.but since im so0 into dance and all that is artsy,that movie was damn go0d.and that diego luna is so0...yumMy scrumboes.
oh god.whads wrong wif my eyes.it keeps blurin at tymes.
waitin for the postin is damn long.it will be out on 20th.sheEsh.and whad am i supose to do til then? sigh...luckily,i have tuitions to give to.and my tuttee (dont think theres such werd) is nisa,of corse!
my eyes is blurin every now and then.this is creepin me out.
hanis dint reply any of my msges.and he dint pick up de phone when i calld.is sumtynk wrong? has his bill gone super high,thus de mother confiscated it? shuld i call his house? i was tynki maybe he has trainin but it was rainin super heavy todae.so cant be ryte?
he msgd me!!!at 10.25pm! he wanna talk on de phone. he dint bring his phone to skewl.ok then gtg.cha cha chao!!
broken by love 10:07 pm
i forgot to mention something.
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
.......im not bein demandin........
broken by love 10:19 pm
iritatin.argh!
this was whad happend:
i knew he was hungry and he will never want to eat if i dunt eat with him.so i made a fake call home,actin as if i was talkin to my mom and askin her whether i can buy chiken rice or not, during which i wanted him to buy for himself first.but he waitd for me to finish my 'call'.sigh.so when the act dint werk,i told him i cant buy coz my mom said not to.and so,bein de 'considerate' boyfren,he to0 dint buy!i was super pisd by then bcoz tis had happend a number of tymes!argh!!! i just walkd away but he promisd me he wil buy later at a stall near his place after his haircut.i was fine with that coz at least he stil wants to eat.but i dunt know...de pisd feelin just stayd with me for the rest of de journey we were walkin home,and he dint say anythin at all!i wantd to pull him to one side and have a chat bout whad that had just occurd but i just have tis tynkin that GUYS shud do that.(maybe i watchd to0 much television..)anw,once we were under my block,we huggd go0dbye and i said sorry.and he told me that he lovd me.but after we un-huggd,de pisd feelin just flo0d back into me.he msgd me sayin sorry and all i told him i was eatin,which i was.i wantd to add 'dun make me lose my apetite'.but i tot it wuld b to0 mean.so,he msgd again and say bout de incident again.tis tyme i realli told him that,'dun make me lose my apetite'.i expect him to say sorry again but de reply was,"what did i do??" and he told me bout de barber uncle cuttin hes hair wrong and all.and i tot he was tryin to be nice and forget bout de whole thing.either that or he was plain blur and dint understand me.so i tot,'well,hes bein nice and for once wantd to forget the whole thing without de repetitive 'im sorry''.so i was quite ok by then.until whad i dreaded happend.i tynk i must have said sumtink sarcastic or evil and when he replid in a i-dunt-understan and whads-wrong-with-you kinda tone,i replied back with a "whatever".all ended with him askin me to take care and msg him when i want to. and a few mins ago he sent me a joke thru sms.i smild.yeah..obviously.just by lo0kin at his photo on my monitor made me forget whad that happend.sigh....im confusd.so0 confused.
thing is,i have a problem with him not wantin to do whad he wants!for example:he wont eat unless i eat with him! and usually,im not even hungry.either that or i have eaten.and so he wont eat,which is usually from mornin to 8 or 9pm! argh!! i dont know why this pisd me off but its just....iritatin.i know hes tryin to be nice and all but if it is so frequent...its iritatin! i dunt want to tell him directly becoz i know hes gona feel hurt and im not go0d at convincing him that i wasnt angry with,just pisd with his kindness at times.also if i tell him face to face,he will give me the i-have-disapointd-you-and-im-really-sorry lo0k.im not seriously angry or whad.just pisd.and at alot of occasions like these!argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dunt wana lose him.im so close to him now.i dunt even want to think whad will happen if i do.....(oh wait.i tot of that before.only i did it half way thru)anw,i care for him alot.that is why i want him to eat whenever he wants to.and do whatever he wants to,whenever.i dunt want to Queen Control him.its not me! and also,its not that i dint want to forgive him or anythin just now just that for me,once im realli pisd,at that time,moment and a few hours after that,de feelins gonna stay.until i have co0ld down.(which is usually very fast) i do hate him for ahilw back then.but im kinda ok now.anw,its not go0d for de relationship. dunt want to ruin it in anyway.im so attachd to him now.i love him lots.and if i sumhow have hurt you hanis,im really sorry.but i want you to know that i love you.and dunt try to hard to please me.if thats whad ure tryin to do.i love you for who you are.
broken by love 9:53 pm
im up late this mornin.10am.in de early mornin when my brothers and mother are goin for scho0l and werk respectively,i heard my brother tellin my mom that i had slept with de light on.sheEsh.now,im chattin with hanis.and just finishd registerin for my future scho0lin...future.whad shit.
i want to get out of my house!!im bored!!
anw,i tynk i haf to accompany my dad to my aunts place.but not confirmd yet.then,after that,i have to find a go0d reason to go out.i want to see the national xcountry at turf city.where is turf city,i have no idea.i suck as a singaporean.damn.
i have nothin else to say for now.so cha cha chao! (hey!it rhymes!im go0d.very go0d.)
broken by love 10:48 am
im up late this mornin.10am.in de early mornin when my brothers and mother are goin for scho0l and werk respectively,i heard my brother tellin my mom that i had slept with de light on.sheEsh.now,im chattin with hanis.and just finishd registerin for my future scho0lin...future.whad shit.
i want to get out of my house!!im bored!!
anw,i tynk i haf to accompany my dad to my aunts place.but not confirmd yet.then,after that,i have to find a go0d reason to go out.i want to see the national xcountry at turf city.where is turf city,i have no idea.i suck as a singaporean.damn.
i have nothin else to say for now.so cha cha chao! (hey!it rhymes!im go0d.very go0d.)
broken by love 10:48 am
im stuck with this registration thingy.i dunnoe whad else and which one to put as my choices.very little and limited.irritating.and stressing.this afterno0n the registration thingy not werkin.sheEsh.btw,how far is toh tuck campus?
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
im at home,thinkin of my future scho0lin...umm..future.whad shit.anyway,i got quite a sucky result.buthen again,its go0d for me lar,in a way.i guess.damn im talkin shit.
went to compass point library to teach nisa maths n ss.hanis,in the end,was de one who taught her.i was there,in pain.no,not heart pain seein them studyin but pain in de ass.hahahaha.no lar..i had menstrual cramps.damn it.it was irritatin.before that though,hanis crashd my place.suposedly to help me with de registration thingy but since de thingy got corkd up,somehow,so we just slack around ar.
tomorrow we planned to go to mi bartley campus,again, to register but since now can register readi,might as well do it now and get it over and done with.then may go tu turf city to watch the national cross country.
hanis damn syck.sto0pid sak the display pics.i got face cramps (if there is actually such stuff). i pity myself.tsk tsk tsk...kesian siti. (now i sound like fart.iish..tak bestnyer.asik mcm tu pompan jer.tak bleh jadik nie) i like de one he posin wif johan.kewl man.but i laffd coz its just so0 not him.mebe his not so0 like that wif me lar.but its damn kewl.
wish he culd pose like that with me.
broken by love 10:47 pm